“We had lived with a lack of food for so long that when it was there, I felt like I had to eat it before it disappeared.” Chrissy Metz reveals about her dark past in her new memoir, ‘This Is Me’

This is Us star, Chrissy Metz has introduced her book titled This Is Me: Loving the Person You Are Today. To promote her book, she will be going in North Central College’s Pfeiffer Hall, 310 E. Benton Ave, Naperville on April 2018, where she will be interacting with media and fans about her memoir. The below are some highlights which she shared with us.

Abusive Stepdad

Metz’ biological father, who is a former Navy officer cheated on his mother Denise. Then her mother had to raise her as well as her two other siblings Monica and Philip on her own. Her mother then remarried but her new husband did not treat her well. Soon after the marriage, her mother was pregnant with her stepdad then he used to love his biological children and treat his stepchildren like animals. She says,

“Soon she was pregnant again, with another girl, Abigail. Trigger loved his two biological children, and was even welcoming to Morgana. Me, not so much. My mother was always at work, so she didn’t see how he treated me.”

In this book, she has revealed the dark contrast which she faced in the past. She has mentioned that her childhood was not a good as her father cheated on her mom and they divorced. Then she stayed with her mum and her mum remarried but her stepfather turned out to be abusive. She shared,

“It was as if he hated to have to even look at me. My body seemed to offend him, but he couldn’t help but stare, especially when I was eating. He never punched my face. Just my body, the thing that offended him so much. He shoved me, slapped me, punched my arm, and yanked my wrist. He would hit me if he thought I looked at him wrong.”

Source: People Magazine(Chrissy Metz childhood picture with her brother, Philip, and sister, Monica)

She had to suffer for food as well,

“We had lived with a lack of food for so long that when it was there, I felt like I had to eat it before it disappeared. Food was my only happiness.”

“And so, I began to hide my eating. I’d get up in the middle of the night and eat. I’d sneak food to eat in the bathroom. Cookies, chips. Things I could eat as fast as possible to avoid detection. Things that would give me the brief bliss of numbness.”

But after she achieved fame, her stepdad wrote a letter praising her by saying how courageous she is. About this, she commented,

“I have had to grow to understand that I owe Trigger so much for doing what my biological father never did for me, and still acknowledge that he tormented me. And he also made my life such hell that now, I feel nothing can break me.”

Haters, who made her do more

Metz is very grateful to her haters because they were the one who made her remove the best out of her. She also feels that they are one the important aspects of her life which is why she is here. She shares,

“Lastly, to the folks who told me no, passed me up and counted me down and out. You were always a part of the plan. Thank you.”